27.04.17 - Aint Worried About Nothin

When I try to think of my happiest moment in recent years I'm taken back to walking up Ladbroke grove at Carnival (does basic research) 2013 following a truck playing French Montana's Aint Worried About Nothin. I don't know why I pick an abstract moment like that, rather than moments where I was almost certainly happier at the time. Maybe it's because that moment hasn't been tainted by association with bad things I've done later. It sits in isolation. A moment of pure, carefree abandon. If you aren't aware Ladbroke Grove on Carnival is a sea of people following sound systems on slow moving trucks (and occasional packs of extravagantly costumed dancers). By late afternoon Grove is an almost impenetrable sea of people dancing, jostling, singing, shouting, laughing, crying. When I think back to that moment in 2013 I image myself floating atop this sea of people. Kept afloat by the joyous voices of the crowd, totally alone, but at the same time surrounded. "Aint worried 'bout nuffin. Nigga I aint worried bout nuffin". At that moment no words have ever felt more true to me.

James